This morning I've heard shocking news while I was eating my breakfast with my sister, Nyo. Nyo teriak "Ya Allah kak Ashraf meninggal" "Ashraf siapa Nyo? Suaminya BCL?" "Iya suaminya BCL. Huhuhu kasian BCL"
While she digging more about the news, looking for some source hoping it was just a hoax. I didn't know much about BCL and Ashraf as a person, yet it broke my heart and got me tear up knowing the news. I mean..... to imagine being BCL, as we see them in layar kaca, they're both best friends for each other. As Nyo checked BCL instagram stories, it shows that last night BCL was scheduled to be Indonesian Idol judges, which means she comes home late last night. To comes home late and get his husband gone in the morning, myGod. I. Can't.
Uh this reminds me of Kobe Bryant and her daughter Gigi, it was shocking news. I used to dream of watching Kobe live, but oh well he retired before it became true. But then when the news came, I was like "damn I can't even meet him outside the court now." But for more than that, so many people inspired by Kobe. It broke so many people's heart, but ohmyGod can you imagine how does it feel to be his wife. :(
I know for sure, for when God said "jadilah, maka jadilah" (as written in QS), but God..... this feels unreal, and a lil bit of me asking is this even fair? Yet again, aku penganut "semua yang terjadi pasti ada maknanya" God is Great, He's a Great Planner. So, everything that happens will lead to something. Whatever it is.
Anyway, this recent news made me think more. Question myself with "what I really wanna do?" "If my time is short, is this how I wanna spend it?"
Plus it made me think about the people that I care about. If they're gone without any notice, are we in good terms with them? Is that something that I want to keep in my memory? Or their memory in case I have gone first?
Oh shit. This made me sad.
Oh shit. This made me sad.
